Episode 78: Regarding Romantic Feelings (6)
After slight hesitation,
With an ever so delicate movement, Bom received the business card as other writers, who had been intently listening from the sides, let out gasps of admiration.
“Here is the contract. Look through it first and when your manager comes later, you can sign both that and the movie adaptation contract.”
This time, Carrot Girl chimed in as her elbow brushed past Yu Jitae’s arm. Bom looked at her with a sluggish gaze before taking the paper bag of contracts that was in her hands.
That was when other writers began opening their mouths.
“Wow! That is amazing!”
“It really went well for you…! Congratulations!”
“Wahh…”
The surrounding people gave her a round of applause, saying “Congratulations!” and “Wow, it must feel great…!”. Some of them had discontent looks on their faces because that was how big of an opportunity this was.
Bom remained silent and simply held the papers in her hands. A veteran novelist, one of the executives of the Horror Institution, shot out of his seat and raised a glass of champagne with a hearty laugh.
“Haha! This truly is a happy occasion. We were inadequate and could not promise movie adaptations for everyone… but you helped us out like this! Thank you, Miss Carrot Girl.”
“Try better next year. Shouldn’t people above the Silver Prize all have the OSMU contract at least? It’s true the genre isn’t mainstream but still.”
She was showing an extremely arrogant attitude that made the entire Institution appear incompetent, but it was tolerable today. It was because the movie adaptation of a novel given the Gold Prize by the Institution could be seen as the result of the Institution’s support.
“Haha! We will devote ourselves more. Let us do a toast together in this happy occasion!”
“Ohh–!”
“Sounds good!”
Raising their champagne glasses, the writers stood up from their seats. The very last one to stand was Bom, who slowly stood up with a glass of champagne in her hand.
“Now! If Miss Broccoli could start us off with the toast statement please?”
She did not reply.
“Come on!”
“Yes. Please give us a share of your luck!”
People pressed her from the sides. With the glass in her hand, Bom slowly opened her mouth.
“I will give up on the Gold Prize.”
A cold bucket of ice was dropped. Someone who was parroting her statement murmured, ‘I will give…’ before immediately shutting their mouth.
The atmosphere immediately settled.
Wondering if they were hearing things, people blinked their eyes, but Bom remained headstrong.
“I will also destroy the manuscript.”
“P, please wait a second. Miss Broccoli?”
“Sorry to say this on such a joyous occasion.”
Saying that, Bom lowered the champagne glass and ripped the contract in front of Carrot Girl’s eyes.
It was a contract strengthened by magic but was powerlessly ripped before the grip and mana of a dragon.
Everyone was shocked. Movie adaptation was like the dream of every novelist so what in the world was she doing?
More than anyone else, it was Carrot Girl who was the most pissed.
“Look.”
Without listening to her words, Bom continued ripping the contract.
“Oi! Broccoli! Have you gone mad?”
Her hands became even faster. With trembling hands, Bom ripped the contract and ripped it again, as if trying to grind it into powder.
After throwing away the shedded contract, she grasped the business card that Yu Jitae gave her but hesitated before ripping it. In the end, she could not rip the business card.
Why exactly was she like this?
Yu Jitae was also dumbfounded and was staying still while Carrot Girl shouted at Bom, thinking that she was being ignored.
“Ey, ey! What are you even doing?”
The startled writers near her raised their arms and blocked her body.
“I’m asking you. What are you doing right now!”
“I don’t want the movie adaptation,” replied Bom.
“Then just say that and don’t rip it! You impudent brat. Just with a little award you dare look down on me like this?”
“And what?”
“What?”
“How long do I have to play around with you humans?”
In an instant, Carrot Girl’s body froze from her words.
It was bizarre. Not because it was impolite but because her words were sending chills down her spine.
Her pupils appeared to be with a vertical split for a moment but blinking her eyes, Carrot Girl realised that it was an illusion. Despite feeling chills, she couldn’t withstand her anger from the rudeness so Carrot Girl yelled out loud.
“Oi Broccoli. Do you think you can ever succeed in this field after doing this!?”
Carrot Girl was shouting furiously to the point that veins were popping out of her neck. “P, please calm down!”, “What is happening…!” The onlookers ran up and hurriedly tried to dissuade Carrot Girl.
There was no point in hearing any longer. Yu Jitae looked into the eyes of Carrot Girl and thought of shutting her mouth with a gag. Immediately afterwards, she turned silent and stiff.
It was then.
Bom raised her champagne glass, and moved her feet towards Carrot Girl.
He was sceptical of what she was trying to do, but still had to stop her.
“Bom. Calm down. This is something you were happy about.”
Yu Jitae stood in front of her. And that was when Bom’s expression that had been indifferent no matter which words were being thrown at her, changed for the first time.
“Are you going to render all your efforts into nothing?”
“…”
“Bom–”
“…”
The faint change in her expression slowly became all the more apparent. Beads of liquid appeared under her eyes; her eyebrows sagged low and she clenched her lips.
He felt that he shouldn’t stop Bom here as it would surely affect her happiness. Her eyes were conveying something to him: that she wished him to be on her side.
When he stopped his body from the instinctive feeling, Bom walked past him. On top of the face of Carrot Girl, whose arms were being grabbed by other people,
She poured the champagne.
Huh huh? People gasped in shock but it was already too late by then. She dumped it so hard that it splashed above Carrot Girl’s head.
“Ahhkkk! You crazy b*tch—-!”
The champagne that had been filling the glass wetted Carrot Girl’s face, hair and all her clothes. Her hair that she had carefully tied up was undone, making her look like a vagabond while her thin dress was also drenched. Her managers dashed towards her in fright and quickly covered her with napkins.
It was chaotic and the writers inside the room couldn’t make anything out of the situation. Why in the world would that gentle-looking Broccoli do this? They were frozen stiff from shock when a low and soft voice resonated across the banquet hall.
“Sorry for pouring cold water on such a joyous occasion. Please deprive me of every qualification and right. If there is anything I must take responsibility for, please contact me.”
Lowering her head, she said with a sorrowful voice.
“…I won’t write a novel, ever again.”
From her dragon heart beating like crazy left an uncontrollable language of mana. She was pretty much using her [Dragon’s Voice] for this declaration.
After her words, Bom slowly walked out of the hall, and due to being suppressed by her aura, no-one could go after her.
Except for Yu Jitae.
*
Bom walked fast.
He chased after her.
Suddenly, her body rose into the air before vanishing into thin air – it was teleportation. Yu Jitae closed his eyes and tracked her aura. He felt traces of her from the waiting room they had been at, a relatively close place.
He quickly moved his body. Going through walls, he closed his eyes and enshrouded himself in darkness.
By the time he reopened his eyes, he was in front of the waiting room but the lights of the corridor couldn’t sense him and remained off.
Yu Jitae opened the door of the waiting room and walked in. He found Bom sitting on the sofa with her back towards him, under the bright lights of the room.
He walked towards her.
“Bom.”
“……Yes.”
“What did you just do. Why did you do it.”
“…”
“I’m asking you why. Why have you done it.”
“…”
Bom was silent for a very long time.
“I’m not trying to blame you. It’s just that I cannot understand. When was it that you and I decided to write a novel together? It was one year ago. You were working hard on it for close to a year so why did you mess it up with your own hands.”
“…”
“Same with the movie adaptation. That was something I prepared in my own way, so what did you not like and what made you do such an unreasonable thing, huh?”
“…”
“You could have stayed still and everything would have gone well. And yet you messed it up like this. Answer me. Why exactly did you do it.”
Her quivering voice oozed out.
“…A bit of time.”
“What?”
“…Please give me a little bit of time.”
Her body was once again covered in light, in an attempt to teleport somewhere else.
However, he couldn’t let her do so since this problem had to be taken care of right here. He grabbed her by the shoulders and dispersed her mana.
“Yu Bom.”
When he pulled the child by her shoulders, Bom was forced to turn towards him.
Bom gazed up into Yu Jitae’s eyes with an indifferent expression,
With tears flowing from her apathetic eyes.
“…”
Bom was crying. Wearing an extremely familiar expression.
His head turned blank.
Several times, he had seen Bom cry in the 7th iteration. Once, she cried from regret and once she cried from heartache.
But it was different this time. Her eyes indifferently looking at his eyes with flowing tears –
It coincided with how she cried,
At the end of the 6th iteration, emptying out words that had filled her heart. It was the result of a lack of communication.
“What will you do by running away. I still don’t know anything.”
Both now and back then, there was a definite reason behind her tears. But back then, he did not try to hear and this time, Bom was not trying to say it.
“Tell me. So that I can listen and understand!”
His voice became a little louder.
With tears still travelling down her cheeks, Bom coarsely gasped for breath seemingly both agitated and anxious. But soon, her eyes formed a frown as if she was unable to hold it in any more.
“…likes you.”
“What?”
Swallowing her tears, Bom opened her mouth.
“…That woman, said she likes ahjussi.”
Words he had never even imagined, left her mouth.
“…She said to me, that you had a date.”
“A date?”
“…Didn’t you?”
What did that crazy thing babble about? Swallowing the surge of irritation inside him, Yu Jitae opened his mouth.
“No.”
Like a child, Bom continued speaking under her breath.
“…That woman, calls ahjussi Jitae-ssi… she said you ate together… she likes looking at you… she thinks you’re sexy… she said, ahjussi, ahjussi was appealing…”
Bom continued whilst swallowing her tears.
“…I, I hated that so much.”
She lowered her head in tears.
Seeing the child cry, he gave her a hug. Her body flinched in shock.
He did not know what he was supposed to say. However, he did have the wisdom of hugging a child until she could calm herself down again.
In his arms, she at last bursted into tears and started pouring out her honest thoughts.
“Actually… I don’t need anything like novels. One year, ten years, a hundred years… it doesn’t matter how much time I spend on it… I don’t feel pain even if others ignore and look down on it…”
“…”
“But, why does my heart ache so much when ahjussi has a meal with someone else…?”
Instead of a reply, he returned a tight hug and quietly hugged her until her tears came to a stop.
After roughly 6 hours, only once the veil of night covered them did Bom stop her tears.
Noice, thanks for the chapter
Wow
Bom numbah 1
thanks for the chapter , that feels short
Thanks!
I know that this is not the proper time but.
If Dragons are the one who causes the Apocalypse. Why not go to their dimensions (Askalifa?) And hunt the dragons one by one?
It’s too far, mc could only visit the nearby dimensions like the dimension of Chirpy.
And if you’re asking how could the dragons do it, well because they are dragons? And there’s this link thingy that sends signals that the dragon can track when a hatchling dies.
Because it is too far. Jitae could travel to nearby dimensions through the abyss, or through travelling through the dimensional gap. However, the metaphysical distance between his dimension is so vast that it’s impossible to traverse it. Also, he doesn’t know the coordinates of Askalifa, so it’s impossible to go there.
Yu Kitae is strong, but he can’t defeat multiple adult dragons.
Here’s a phrase from chapter 1:
“However, even such a Yu Jitae could not protect the entirety of the Earth against tens of dragons.”
I don’t think thats true. Sure if he had to fight all of them at once he’d lose. But he has his own Dimension, he could easily do hit and runs.
The reason he can’t handle the dragons attack on earth is that time resets even when he’s still alive but earth is wrecked. And he can’t be everywhere at once.
It was never mentioned that he’d lose in a fight against dragons.
He is stronger than a dragon. But he need to fight a lot of them, and in the process he can’t prevent the Earth been destroyed. He is just one man. That’s why he is trying to prevent the invasion, because even if he could kill all the dragon given enough time, the Earth would be destroyed in the meanwhile.
He tried. He can’t get to their dimension. It was mentioned as a plot point when he first discussed traveling to other dimensions.
That was also my idea.
Cause even Yu Jitae said that he can’t fight a whole world of dragons by himself, which is why he couldn’t repel the dragon’s invasion either when there’s too many to kill
In addition to what others said, the limit on dragons is higher than the limit on humans. It was mentioned that the original dragon who created the fragment thing inside of the hatchlings was probably stronger than Jitae yet through the passing of time he should be dead by now.
That world is too far away from this current dimension
I know that this is not the proper time but.
If Dragons are the one who causes the Apocalypse. Why not go to their dimension (Askalifa?) And hunt the dragons one by one?
He did try in the past but Askalifa was way too far for him to travel.
I guess I’m supposed to be emotionally moved here but I just think that Bom is being dumb. She knows the MC doesn’t have any interest in that woman and she knows he was just going out with her to get the movie deal. She knows all that but still flipped out. It’s just stupid.
In generally, I really don’t like how the Bom development is going.
First, she was like the “grown-up dragon trying to flirt with the dense MC”. That was cute.
Then it comes out that she is being creepy and manipulative and trying to “dye the MC is her own colours”. And she also has masochistic tendencies.
Then, the MC starts to react to her which causes her to lose the feeling that she was in control of things. So now she’s like an emotionally unstable child?
It’s really just… unpleasant.
Makes sense though, Bom acts mature and composed all the time because she knew the future/ parts of it so she’s prepared and isn’t easily agitated.
And go back to some couple chapters, the old lady is talking to Bom about how jealousy can cloud someone’s eyes, etc. She’s only acting like that because just like what Bom’s said, she gives zero fcks to everyone else except our mc.
I totally get what you mean. She is very unhealthuly obsessed This is just another form of love, tho this is more primal and rash. T’was bound to happen at soon as carrot girl made an appearance. I’m just glad she didn’t die but Jitae or Bom.
Like it or not, it’s been hinted at for a long time she has yandere traits. Her perfect exterior covers a deep sense of apathy and helplessness, although she does also possess empathy and comradery. In a colourless world where Providence robs the future of possibility, he has become the first thing to catch her interest, and it’s become an obsession.
Other than how he’s uniquely twisted as a human and interesting, I think she senses on some level how he isn’t fully restrained by Providence. When Providence feels like shackles, even being in the presence of someone who can warp it and have it warp around him due to the Hostility is going to feel a lot like freedom.
As for the masochism… For green dragons, the script of life is already written, all that remains to prove their existence as individuals is the details of how they act out their roles. She craves abuse because it is a way to express in the art of lived experience her deep and obsessive love, that she is willing to accept anything if it’s from him. Which is still masochism, but not baseless and shallow masochism you see in other stories. She was empty, but now her heart is full of him. Pain, happiness, it all seems the same when you’re dying of thirst and trying to drink in as much emotion as you can.
In a way, it’s a good thing she’s like this. I expect her to become aware of the events of the previous regressions, maybe even remembering them. As twisted as she is, she has the capacity to offer him true forgiveness a normal person would never be able to, the ability to help him truly if incompletely move on from his past mistakes.
Finally! Someone who has the same thought as me. I think this is the arc where we could finally see the true personality of Bom.
The logic that “wants him to abuse her to prove that she would still love him despite being abused” is nonsense. It’s just twisted logic to justify her desire to be abused. Why doesn’t she want him to sleep with other women? Wouldn’t that provide proof that she would love him despite him sleeping with other women? But no, it’s physical abuse specifically that she wants.
And yes, it’s been obvious for some time that she was yandere. I didn’t really like it but I could accept it, the MC isn’t really a decent person anyway. However, her being pathetic like this means you can’t even give her points for being a cool yandere character. And it also loses her points for being a mature character. So now she has no points!
And I’m pretty sure that all the dragons will learn about the previous regressions and all the dragons will forgive him. Just Bom doing it wouldn’t be good enough.
I like almost everything about this novel except this relationship. I understand that she’s emotionally unstable or whatever, but what I don’t like is that all her actions will have no consequences. The mc doesn’t care about anyone else and even himself (like we saw on the flashback with Baby Yellow), so she can just throw tantrum after tantrum and then she’ll just say “Oh I guess I was just jealous” and all will be forgiven.
I think Jitae applying consequences will be a part of the progression.
Bom is my least favorite of the four, but I still understand her. She’s at war with herself. Back when the story mentioned her mother, it talked about how green dragons lose themselves to the collective will of their foresight. I think that’s where the incongruity comes in. She’s torn between the sagacious aspect of the foresight, a dragon’s greedy/tyrannical nature, and a girl experiencing her first love. The war between these three aspects make her appear respectively manipulative, aggressive, vulnerable, and overall unstable. (Although you may argue the last two are both from her falling in love, it was implied during the laptop incident that Bom is also possessive of things other than Jitae.) Bom’s story so far is about these three aspects pulling her apart.
I’m hoping this arc clarifies this plot point when they talk. I’m exhausted with Jitae’s obliviousness to her multiple aspects. Once you understand that she has 3 “settings” she actually becomes pretty predictable. (Guide Jitae to rehumanize him, monopolize him, or hide from him.)
I do agree that I don’t like where she currently stands, but it’s less how Jitae feels about Carrot Girl, but instead that she wants to do the things that Carrot Girl got to do. She wants to go on a date, think he’s sexy, call him familiarly, she’s jealous of that. Less so of Carrot Girl and more Jitae dates. But that’s along the monopolizing manipulation train and would be some red flags in a normal relationship…
I agree with you
But I think it’s a good thing. Characters don’t have to be perfect. Sometimes they can be dumb. Perhaps the surprise pushed her to far.
And you’re right. Narcissistic whom lost control will freak out. That’s what she did
wow have you never been in love or dating , the dumb choices, irrational thoughts , random emotionally charges moments and desire to monopolize are EXTREMELY NORMAL.The jealously under control usually happens in a stable relationship of 3+years
And btw she’s not a ‘grown-up’ dragon but someone who directly sees end result which will never change. And the ‘dye in her colors ‘part? the wording makes it sound bad.What she tried doing was make mc have human like feelings again and the requirement was for him to fall in love with her.But then she also fell for him that’s why she wants to monopolize him.
and unstable child part, did you forget her past she told in kaeul arc? she has the most fked up childhood of all dragons (even yeorum had better) and add to that her mother literally was the monarch of green dragons.
It’s her first love and she’s been repressed all her life by her domineering mother. That you expect her to remain the infallible mature character forever would make her by far the stalest dragon. All the dragons have problems that the MC needs to solve. That the green dragons were less apparent than the rest does not mean her character development is worse than the others.
Because she is an emotionally unstable child. The thing with dragons is they are dragons, not humans. Dragons have the right to be unstable in human perception because they are dragons – they can do anything and everything they want. So what if they throw a tantrum and decide to lay waste to a whole world? So what if they want to collect every beautiful men and stuff them in their lair? So what if they collect mages and kill them just to force their cub to learn magic?
For dragons, everything is theirs. That’s why she can’t stand it when a mere human trying to touch her stuff. Only another dragon is her equal.
Jealousy is more often irrational. Even more so for a race like hers.
Welp nice development… Bom kinda annoying but that’s somewhat understandable because she’s a woman and at the same time she’s a dragon from green race, her burden look like an interest from bank that she herself need to hold and only great teacher Jitae that make her open up
Women generally go by emotions and Men by logic.
Not that they lack the other is just the norm.
Emotions that by the way are generally subconscious and not so easy to control.
Bom only had 20 years of human interaction and her relatives are dragons, so I think is reasonable she still lack in this kind of thing.
This is not true.
“Women generally go by emotions and Men by logic.”
That’s just your misogynistic upbring talking. Every person, male or female, are driven by both.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chariot_Allegory
That’s just your feminist upbringing talking. Men of course have emotions and feel them just as strongly if not stronger than women. The difference is a man tries to master his emotions while a woman is a slave to hers.
I don’t know why but these couple of chapters have been stressful for me…
First time Bom has faced jealousy. Thanks for the chapter
Bom is going too far…
This time, Bom is really being a b*tch. I feel bad for Carrot Girl. Unlike Yeorum, she teased Bom a little bit while thinking she’s just a normal girl. She didn’t do anything that deserves to be spit in her face.
lmao if you didn’t read the novel and said that then yeah but saying that while reading is just plain hate.
Bom is unstable as heck and being a dragon these peeps are literally flies irritating her.Just the fact that she controlled enough not to kill like with yeorum is best,
To carrot girl aka stuck up self entitled best in the world(lol) , her looking down on and treating others as she likes is normal, see how she tried that with mc. She totally deserves it ,heck she barely got what she deserved.She’s trying to fk around with ppl she barely knows for some dumb novel idea, are ya saying she’s in the right for that?
Haha, what is more stupid, playing with fire or emotions of a dragon? She got away easy with no permanent loss other than her pride.
…thank you for the chapter.
TL;DR
All good everything is on the path there’s nothing with these development based on my novel intuition.
Thx for the Chapter~!
(✧ω✧)
Nah, Im good with this, This is the providence she saw. Yu Jitae hugging a black haired girl.
Yup
Wow, what a chapter… it seems like jealously blinded Bom here quite hard, but in the end it brought the two of them together. Can’t wait for the next one. 🙂
Fuck bom, what a total bitch.
I like Bom as a character less and less with each chapter. I though her whole point in the novel would be about Providence and struggles against it with MC and maybe with some bits of romance here and there, but now its turning out to be a highschool drama story with lightly sprinkled providece lore in the background. Hugely dissapointed with her ark for now, hope we will see something more from her than: “be mine or Ill cry”.
“Be mine or I’ll cry” is a nice way to put it
its not I’ll cry but I’ll go nuts and probably kill myself and a bunch of others.
if that was what you expected her then you did wrong. Cuz the story apparent from the start few chaps was something like ‘ 4 problem children who’ll cause troubles and robot mc has to save the day by keeping them in check and become human in the process’
Its just that issues with kaeul , yeorum were most apparent. Gyeoul was mainly on her mission and growing up side. Only bom was presented as the perfectly calm and stable element , this being in contradiction with how the other hatchlings are.Anyone who reads troupes could tell that she’d be the most problematic, extremely difficult to handle and the hidden last boss XD
thanks for chap
am on bom’s side totally for this one. The biggest issue with mc is he doesn’t seem to understand what romance for all normal ppl is and how this action of his affects her.
And am totally gonna blame him for protecting dumb carrot girl. Whatever happened to the ‘ fk the world all i care is for the dragons, their will takes max priority’
this chap was most disappointing on mc ‘s side for literally having all the clues but failing to piece it together.
Hope yeorum puts some shoujo sense into mc
Bom: Gets worried after seeing black haired girl hug Jitae
Also Bom: Gets hugged after trying black hair because she’s jelly
Full circle
So are they going to have segs?
Nice chapter. As long as the story doesn’t turn into a Melo drama and it’s just here and there I don’t mind it at all. Writing and character interactions in this story is great. And I think it’s a bit ridiculous to suddenly hate on bom for this. She’s a (super-powered dragon) yandere girl in love for the first time, it’s lucky she didn’t do anything worse than some embarrassment
Wowowowoow wasn’t there a providnece that MC would hug a black haired girl? Huhh huhhh is this it? Ohh. Bon was worried for nothing if this was the case. Hahaha
Black haired girl? Isn’t that exactly what she is right now? Loool
I love Bom. But i wish her Amusement is not only about Yu Jitae. Her sole source of happiness is a man. How fucked up is that? Look at her losing her mind. I hate how she cannot see why he did what he did. Her mind is so full of jealousy she cannot think straight
I predict seggs in the following chapters
Yu jitae is very kind to the character who is supposed to be the most mature of all the sisters. It’s not the first time she’s acted aggressively, and she’s even been rewarded for it, without even hearing a lesson. Should have fixed that when she tried to assault a sister at home.
6 hours? Goddamn
“I’m not crazy” – Yu Bom, 31 chapters ago